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Midlife Moments: Lessons Learnt from my Children

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Yesterday, my fourteen year old daughter told me that she wanted to talk to me about something important. Immediately, my heartbeat went up and I got a little scared as when your teenager tells you she wants to talk, you start fearing the worst possible scenario. Luckily, her life was on track, no girlfriend drama, no forgotten homework or bad grades, no stress issues and no bullies. (Thank you, God!) 

She sat me down, looked into my eyes and said, “Mom, I think you yell too much at dad, he is a good man, he does not deserve that.” It hit me like a bullet that what she was saying was right. I do not scream everyday but sometimes I do get stressed out and worked up, especially when I have had a bad day or I made dinner and my husband cannot come downstairs and eat it right away. Unlike me, her dad is mostly calm and balanced and does not freak out easily. I felt ashamed but I also marveled at how she made me aware that I need to stop shouting. I did learn and now, I always try to breathe and exhale and maybe have a glass of wine when I know I might explode and the floodgates of anger might break open! I told her that I really loved dad (which I do) and I would try my best to be respectful, nice and polite.

Children are extremely perceptive and intelligent beings. Sometime last year, I recall that my daughter came downstairs, all dressed up and ready for school and she was radiant and glowing and so I kissed her cheeks and said: “Mansi, you are looking so pretty, meri raani kitni sundar hai (My queen is so beautiful)" and I was generally going overboard like I always do and she says to me very calmly, "Mom, what would you do if I was really ugly, would you still love me?" and I was totally stumped! Then, at a complete loss for words, I said, "What do you think?" She said, "I think you would love me a lot but you would be disappointed" and I was speechless again! Of course, you would argue that every mom finds her child to be the best looking, that no child is really ugly, but the above exchange did open my eyes to the fact that I can be very vain about outer appearances. 

She loves to tease me about this vanity of mine too. When she was younger, she told me, “Mom, you know, all three of us may get the total package.” I replied with some bewilderment, “Total package? What does that mean?” She said, ““Glasses and braces is the total package and very soon all three of us may have that and we all will look super geeky together,” and she laughed gleefully and hysterically at the look of horror and shock on my face trying to visualize all three of my children wearing glasses and braces at the same time.

My twelve year old boy has taught me how to be creative and have fun. Arjun plays in the forest and the creek in our backyard, he picks up lizards and turtles, he takes pictures of snakes, he makes bows and arrows out of tree branches, he made a pulley on the balcony railing with a bucket attached to it to get stuff from downstairs to upstairs without going up and down the stairs, he makes robots out of k’nex pieces, he bakes cakes and other desserts and he is always up to something. I want to imbibe his limitless imagination and his sense of wonder. He has exposed us to different cuisines and taught me that cooking can be a relaxing and enjoyable experience. Paulo Coelho has said “A child can teach an adult three things: to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, and to know how to demand with all his might that which he desires.”

Children are very accepting of your flaws. They love people for who they are and they love unconditionally. They are also very caring and forgiving. We can get very critical as we get older. Once, I was feeling beaten down about messing up something important out of sheer foolishness and forgetfulness. I am always very hard on myself when I fail at something and I told my youngest son, “Why do I behave this way, I wish I could be more organized and careful.” My nine year old told me so sweetly “It’s not your fault mom, you were born this way” and in that moment a load lifted off my head and heart and I hugged him tightly. Incidentally, my youngest is very efficient and works in a systematic way. He is an artist and his markers, paintbrushes, glue, scissors, crayons etc. are always lined up in a certain way. Whenever I go shopping, he stops me, gets a piece of pen and paper and writes down a list for me so that I do not forget something. 

Sometimes, when I am too tired or lazy to grocery shop we run out of snacks and on one such occasion my youngest pulled out an amazing snack supply he had saved in his room and I was unaware that he had done that. I said, “Why are you hoarding snacks in your room Armaan?” and he told me, “You need to save for a rainy day mom, you have to be prepared” and boy, did his snack saving come in handy that day, it saved me a trip to the store! 

We, as adults can get rusty and jaded. Recently, at a staff training day at work we listened to a speaker and then at the end very few people had questions. It was the last segment before lunch break and so people were more interested in wrapping things up and heading out to eat. Children are consumed with curiosity; they always have a million questions!

 Do not let the child in you die. Do grow up and be responsible and mature but do not forget to stop and smell the roses or see that pretty red bird hiding on a beautiful tree. My children build my self-esteem as much as I build theirs. I tell them that they are the most beautiful people on this planet and they can do whatever they set their minds to. My son told me that I was the prettiest woman in all the universes and they collectively get upset at their dad if he ever dares to call me fat. When I tell my children that I do have some dreams but I am getting old now, and I never have enough spare time, they tell me that I have many years ahead of me. They tell me that if I want to do some volunteer work or open up a charitable organization, I should go for it and they will help me and back me up in every way they can. In this journey of parenting I have found that I have learnt a lot more than I have taught.

 

 

 

 

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About the column: Midlife Moments is a slice of my life as a forty something part time reference librarian and a full time mom to three children. I am a simple and honest person and I write from my heart with honesty and humor. These are simple essays on day to day life filled with interesting interactions and observations. I hope that the readers can relate to me and my experiences and we can all connect and join in the conversation.

About the author: Mona Verma has a master’s in English Literature and a master’s in Library and Information science. She grew up in India but has been living in South east USA for the last 18 years. You can read more of her blogs at http://monaver.blogspot.com andhttps://www.richlandlibrary.com/users/mona-verma

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A fun read!

They say when a child is born, a mother is born, and so you've beautifully pointed out that the best lessons a parent learns are those imparted by his/her child/children.

A lovely piece, Mona, laced with the frills, thrills and joys of childhood and the lessons they impart along the way. Your eye for details, and the easy candor is what makes makes the narrative a fun read :)

Warm regards

Ruby

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Ruby, 

It's wonderful to hear from you, you write so well, I love reading your comments. Glad you liked it, love my Bkhush family, have met some great writers here

Mona

A Beautiful Journey!

Loved reading the beautiful descriptions and the tidbits about your amazing children, and the world of delight and surprise they open up for you. They are special in their understanding and perceptions in various unique ways and your essay took us, the readers to the exploration of it all in a joyous, wonderful way. Waiting for more to come soon!

Hugs,
Lopa.

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Hugs back to you Lopa, thanks much for reading and the appreciation. It is great to connect with you

Mona

Fabulous narration!

I was so transported to a bustling home with three smart, intelligent and creative children! Having raised two boys i know how many lessons I learnt and am still learning from them! Kudos to your narration! Loved it!!

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I am so glad you enjoyed my narration, I keep it simple so that readers can read easily and enjoy and kudos to you for rasing two boys, they do teach you so much, right! Thank you again for stopping by.

Mona

My biggest teacher..

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came into my life 3 years ago...I loved this piece thinking I have so much to learn in the coming years.. I think what a child teaches most is their complete simplicity, their ability to see joy in the smallest of things, not over analyze and most of all see things as they are not as we want them to be. Maturity in in all its merits robs us of true wisdom ironically.. To remain childlike an entire life is such a blessing and an earnest wish...

 

thank you for this lovely piece..

Pritha

Pritha Lal

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Pritha,

Its always wonderful to hear from you, thank you for taking the time to read. One of these days I have to read your book which is about the lessons your daughter taught you. My youngest who is nine still sees the joy in little things, spending 3 dollars at the dollar store has him happy and excited! Enjoy each and every moment with your three year old, they grow up so so quickly. Hoping her child like wonder never diminishes. My daughter will turn 15 in five more days, I was nearly in tears when I was organising old clothes in the attic and looked at her three year old salwar kameezes.

best wishes,

 

Mona

Beautifully written

hi Mona

Enjoyed reading this one! Could relate to every word you have said..

Cheers

Anjali

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Anjali,

thanks for stopping by, its reassuring to know we are all in this together :)

Mona

Unlearning every day to learn again ...

Having 3 kids of my own has taught me so much more than what just reading books through those years could not ...each day comes with priceless life skills ..true you and I are the parents ...just a few years ahead of them in age ..may be in experience too.. but finding joy ..finding pleasure in the simplest of forms we so easily give up upon..is something I learn everyday from them !

Love your candid and a feel at home appeal persona through your writings ...honest heartfelt and so much at home !
You are a woman after my own heart!
Stay undiluted always !

Love
Chandrima

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love your comment, am glad that you learn something new everyday, parenting is hard but there are  these joys that make up for it, you are a pure undiluted soul yourself, we should meet sometime, drive over, am not too far

Mona

Lovely read! You are lucky to

Lovely read! You are lucky to have them in your lives but they are just as blessed to have you - imagine these sensitive souls in the hands of a mother who refused to listen to their words of wisdom. So many parents still do that in this day and age - discounting kids for being younger, smaller, less experienced. Thanks, on their behalf..:)

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I never thought of that, love your point of view. Now I feel sorry for those kids whose views are not considered or they are slighted for it. I think in our generation most parents treat their kids with love and respect. My kids always read my blogs too, I never want to write anything they are not comfortable with. They do not rule the house which would be another extreme :) but I do listen to their opinions and admire them for their positive qualities :)

thanks so much for reading and responding

Mona

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